Where to start:
I'm a mom (first of all), engaged to my wonderful fiancé (who's a soldier), a college student (soon), and a daughter/sister/aunt. My weight was normal from the time I was born up until I moved to Alaska in 1994 from Denver. I was 10 at the time and weighed 100 lbs. (perfectly normal, or so I was told). The first year I lived here, I gained 20 lbs. because it was cold, dark, and there wasn't anything to do. My weight crept up through what was left of elementary, middle, and high school. When I graduated in 2002, I weight about 180-185. When I got together with my now ex-husband in 2004, I weighed 209. We found out in May 2005 that I was pregnant. During that pregnancy, I gained 40 lbs. because I ate whatever I wanted and used the "I'm pregnant and can eat anything" excuse. The end result was that the day my oldest daughter was born (1/12/06), I weighed 247. I got married the following year and my weight went down to 237 and then went back up to almost 260. My ex-husband and I separated in March 2010 and finalized our divorce in June 2011. Over the course of the next year, I lost about 30 lbs. I found out in March 2011 that I was pregnant again (by an ex-boyfriend) and I weighed 231 at that point. Over the course of that pregnancy, my weigh went down to 224 and then slowly, I started gaining weight again. The day I delivered my youngest (Alaina), I weighed 247. She was born on November 10, 2011 and at my 2 week post op checkup (it was a repeat C-section), I weighed 224. On December 28, I went in for my 6 week post-partum appointment and to get my IUD put in, I weighed 219. I'm tired of being the fat mom especially since I have two children and a fiancé to keep up with. I need to shed the excess body weight and get comfortable in my own skin again. It's been a long time since I was comfortable enough around other people and situations.
